Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Both Chump and Fool

Spending life as an artist w/out financial backup or a profit plan is for fools ; spending life stoically trading your time for wages that merely cancel the cost of living is for chumps. In trying to manage the time-finance balance as an artist I've somehow worked it so that I'll spend the rest of my life as both a chump and a fool. Shit. Is there any way to start this fucking thing over and try again?

Friday, November 19, 2010

What if Don Johnson was God? What would the answer to a Protestant prayer sound like?

A Fucker Praying
God, I know everybody’s eventually supposed to be christians, but you know it ain’t never gonna happen for everybody. People believe different shit, and some don’t believe nothin, and it seems like they’re doing fine anyway. But them conservative bastards & fancy TV ministers are fuckin up everything. As long as there’s even one person left that ain’t a christian, then they’ll keep blaming all our problems on everybody that ain’t kissin the church’s ass. Why do these fuckers get to use my government to try to up their numbers? Shit, ain’t your numbers good enough as it is? I pay my taxes & shit to the government and I go to church to get holy. Can’t you make them stop fuckin around with my town’s laws & my social life? Tell them there’s a lot of christians that want them to get the fuck out of my church and stop pretending they’re god or something.

Well well well, lookie what we got here, a mid-american protestant from the provincial ranks that’s beat the christpublican dogma rap. First things first, buddy, just cause Marty L. hooked you up a hotline to dial direct upstairs so I could understand your colloquial swill, that still don’t mean you’re allowed to say “fuck” when you’re talking to me. As for your conservative buddies, you nailed it on the head, they’re gonna fuck up everything. But I can’t change them or make them disappear, that’s out of my jurisdiction, I only work miracles that you folks won’t remember and can’t verify. It’s your job to pick your candy ass up off the pew & tell these fuckers they’re phonies, and if that don’t work then screw their church. Take a clue from the goddamned buddhists. Hell, they’re stealin all my thunder these days cause you dickoffs are so busy shoving your steeple heads up industries’ & churches’ & lobbyists’ asses that you can’t see nothin else but their two-bit propaganda through your stained-shit windows. Listen, yours truly learned something a long time ago way back before the earth was created that a lot of you blank slates still ain’t figured out: that old saying “There can be too much of a good thing,” well that goes for everything, even religion, and that goes double when you’re stuck in a mortal biological life. Sounds like you learned it too, and the hard way- one too many years in close quarters with your demographic bunkmates in a rationality cesspool. All right pal, your dime’s up. Keep your nose clean, & I’ll check you later.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Diary Entry - Includes Full Bibliography of Works Mentioned in the Noted Conversation

11/7/10. H and C evening guests – a very welcome visit as convalescence much slower than expected, brought soup, not hungry themselves - brought the books we’d discussed – J out for the evening - H informs me of facts about T Bernhard’s life & personality, what I would’ve expected, also I feel partial affinity w/ him now – C with some genuinely interesting ideas about showing my drawings & stories on apparel – both gracious & generous as always – discussion primarily about literature and society


Bibliography of works mentioned in conversation w/ H and C:

Adel des Geistes : ein Vergessenes Ideal – Rob Riemen – (Adel van de Geest : een Vergeten Ideaal - translated from the Dutch by Waltraud Hüsmert)

Auslöschung -- Thomas Bernhard

Eight Cuts Gallery - at http://eightcuts.wordpress.com

The Equalizer - (Television program)

Freedom : a Novel -- Jonathan Franzen

In Search of Lost Time -- Marcel Proust - (A la recherche du temps perdu - translated from the French by Lydia Davis, et. al. ; general editor, Christopher Prendergast)

Interview am Zürichsee : Roman -- Bora Ćosić - (Intervju na Ciriškom jezeru, translated from the Serbian by Barbara Antkowiak)

Jeff Gabel 01 - (Catalog of an exhibition by Jeff Gabel at Spencer Brownstone Gallery, New York, Dec. 1, 2001-Jan. 19, 2002)

Kitchen confidential : Mestarikokin Tunnustuksia – Anthony Bourdain - (Kitchen Confidential : Adventures in the Culinary Underbelly - translated from the English by Leena Nivala)

Maddalena : Romanzo -- Carl Zuckmayer - (Salwàre oder die Magdalena von Bozen - translated from the German by Cecilia Calabresi)

Das Märchen der 672. Nacht -- Hugo von Hofmannsthal

The Moons Ride Over -- Carl Zuckmayer - (Salwàre oder die Magdalena von Bozen - translated from the German by Moray Firth)

Musta Torni II : Kolme korttia pakasta – Stephen King - (The Dark Tower II : the Drawing of the Three - translated from the English by Kari Salminen)

Novels in Three Lines -- Felix Feneon – (Nouvelles en trois lignes – translated from the French by Luc Sante)

Reise ans Ende der Nacht -- Louis-Ferdinand Céline - (Voyage au bout de la nuit – translated from the French by Isak Grünberg)

Reise ans Ende der Nacht -- Louis-Ferdinand Céline - (Voyage au bout de la nuit – newly translated from the French by Hinrich Schmidt-Henkel)

Reitergeschichte -- Hugo von Hofmannsthal

Die Ringe des Saturn : eine englische Wallfahrt – W.G. Sebald

Salwàre oder die Magdalena von Bozen -- Carl Zuckmayer

Schwindel. Gefühle – W.G. Sebald

Thomas Bernahrd : eine Erinneruing -- Krista Fleischman - (Film)

Ulysses -- James Joyce

Der Untergeher -- Thomas Bernhard